Recently I have been stuggling with how to live this Christian life. Am I supposed to look a certain way? Buy items at a certain store? Drive a certain car? Have a certain profession? Give to the needy at least once a week? Always be looking for opportunities to serve? My brain has been busy trying to think of all these things I can DO in order to live a truly fulfilling christian life. Surely God L-O-V-E-S me because I serve Him all the time. I go to church on Sunday, and of course Sunday School, I do a quiet time everyday, and I even go to a Bible Study on Monday before I go to work. Wow. Now, come on, surely God is proud. So then why am I always looking for more ways I can somehow fill the gap that grows in me? Why do feel like I must do more? Maybe because He is tired of me trying to earn His love and reward. I read that He feels sadden by His children who try to earn His love because He is tapping at ours heart saying, "I already love you!" I read that He has already done everything. What must I do then? I am a task oriented person. I need a goal.
So He tells me, "Choose Me." Every morning, mid-day, evening, and night, choose ME. I have found that when I choose Him it does not became a list of goals I need to accomplish, but instead it is Him who whispers instructions, who reminds me that He loves me, who fills me with unexplainable joy. Then I realize that I am somehow living this regular life of a student, employee, girlfriend, daughter, and friend with HIM. My creator and savior. I can live a life joy and sing praises to my King, for He loves me and asks nothing else but to choose Him and worship him and all of His splendor.
John 10:10
.....I come that they may have life and life more abundantly.
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